According to Blogger, it has been 3 weeks since I've posted here. While reading the blog post, there are parts that I find familiar, and parts that I can't be sure that I wrote. However, there is one part that I don't even have to read to know. I still get that same high when I go to the office on most days of the week, but that is of little long-term consequence.
I've been wondering how I've changed over the last three weeks. One of the things that had really worried me towards the end of high school (probably more due to senioritis) and part of college, was this feeling that I wasn't trying hard enough. During that time, when looking back after a bad grade or a stressful week, I often felt like I had ended up not getting enough done, not having enough internal motivation, or working hard enough. While I still feel this way sometimes (especially Thursday afternoons after a long Wednesday and knowing that I have class from 4 to 9 (2 hour break in between)), lately, I've definitely felt more satisfied with my effort. I find myself being more internally motivated to work and more willing to work. Perhaps it's partially due to my better to-do list apps (thanks Astrid), or the change in environment. At least for now, I am very satisfied with myself.
I think the one area that I am not extremely happy with is running. While I've continually tried to put my best foot down on this area, alas, I have not formed a consistent routine yet. I think that it hurts to have class until 8 or 9 three times a week. Previously, I was not a morning person, and that is something that still for the most part has not changed yet. Hopefully, by my next entry, I will have done better. There's always hopeful wishing right?
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