Weekly Update or How Not to Study For Exams

In keeping with the tradition of my two psychology midterms, I have decided that it would be most wise to not study and instead sit in front of my computer and come to revelations instead of studying for physics. Except whenever I do this, I somehow end up with a bunch of questions and very few if any answers.

As I listen to the music from my laptop, it scarcely surprises me that I'm listening to "You Found Me" by The Fray. While I'm not exactly trying to find God, I guess it would be fair to say that I am definitely trying to find something. But how do you know what to look for when you don't know what you're trying to find? It seems like I've found the parts of my life that are easy: what I want to do (occupation-wise), what I enjoy doing now and probably for a while, and set of close friends spread across the country. Is it possible for a webcomic written for geeks actually be right about something other than being geeky?

As I listen to recent Fray CD, I have continually wondered which one is my favorite song. It seems that it is a question I cannot answer, with any near consistency. At first it was "You Found Me", but then it quickly became "Never Say Never". As I think about what my favorite song on the CD is, I realize that it depends just as much on my mood at the time, as how my relationship with my best friend is. For a while, "Say When" was a song that quickly progressed up my most played playlist. Perhaps, now my favorite song, is the one that I looked up the lyrics last time. At first, I listened to "Syndicate" because of it's tune and the music around it. When I got past simply listening to the song, the lyrics hit me. While this is not the first time I have heard a song with this theme, to me, this song is the most realistic, possibly. I guess, I can only hope.

As I go through my days, I wonder whether I still continue to live in the daze that surrounded me when school began this year. An eerie, uncharacteristic optimism motivated me past all that I had attempted for before. If this daze still surrounds me, am I right to still continue to feed off of it? But if it has passed, is this what I am looking for again? Am I right to look for it again, or is this something I should let go seeking for? So many questions, so little directions. How I miss the olden days when it was ok to ask for my parents advice.

For now, I guess I should focus on questions that I can answer though. Surprisingly, I can actually do physics, which means that it's way too easy right now. I am not complaining though, just commenting.

Update or Yet Another Week Coming to a close soon

So as the weeks of the quarter start to pass, I find it appropriate to reflect on the past two weeks and a half. This quarter has definitely taken more away my sleep :( Since the start of the quarter, the amount of sleep I've gotten has drastically decreased. Now, I'm falling asleep left and right during class. Oh boy. So far for the past few days, I've been going to sleep at like 2 and waking up before 7. Ah! I hate my life.

In other news, I'm totally looking forward to next month. I'll be done with my first exams for all my classes, first weekend, Julia's Prom, third weekend is Dashboard Confessional/Augustana concert, and fourth weekend, I'll be completely done with one of my psych classes followed by Memorial Day! I do still need to find some data to present for psych class though.

Hopefully, May will come just in time to save me from April. Not only is there insane, depressing rain (only when I don't have my umbrella), the temperature can't decide to stay warm, leaving me confused on weather to celebrate the coming of Spring.

Not So Weekly Weekly Update

Once again, I find myself in front of a computer wondering what I'm doing. With a monotonous passing of time, I find myself trying to find something to do. While I told myself I would do this or that, I end up not back where I always find myself, here, staring at a computer screen while listening to music. The funny thing is: I never feel like I actually have free time to just slouch around. I'm sure right now, there are a hundred things I should be doing: sleeping, reading, doing homework, etc. Yet I don't. I'm not doing anything not because I don't have anything to do, but more because I don't want to. Ideally, I'd like to blame this on the changing seasons/SAD, but I know I really can't. So I just continue to sit here and stare at the computer screen.

So now that I've told the world what I haven't been doing, I guess it's time to tell people what I have been doing. The first week of school was mediocre at best. Classes aren't too bad I guess, but lecture prep for physics (watching Lewin's lectures) is already killing my brain. The hospital decided that it would be cool to have me volunteer at 8:30 in the morning on Tuesdays, which while I did sign up for it, I clearly indicated that it was not my preferred time. The lab has been ok. I managed to start some cool stuff that broke from the monotony of MRI film analysis and make some microscope slides. While that may seem strange, it was definitely a good break.

Hopefully this week will turn out better. Tomorrow morning is the first time volunteering; I guess we'll see how it is.