In keeping with the tradition of my two psychology midterms, I have decided that it would be most wise to not study and instead sit in front of my computer and come to revelations instead of studying for physics. Except whenever I do this, I somehow end up with a bunch of questions and very few if any answers.
As I listen to the music from my laptop, it scarcely surprises me that I'm listening to "You Found Me" by The Fray. While I'm not exactly trying to find God, I guess it would be fair to say that I am definitely trying to find something. But how do you know what to look for when you don't know what you're trying to find? It seems like I've found the parts of my life that are easy: what I want to do (occupation-wise), what I enjoy doing now and probably for a while, and set of close friends spread across the country. Is it possible for a webcomic written for geeks actually be right about something other than being geeky?
As I listen to recent Fray CD, I have continually wondered which one is my favorite song. It seems that it is a question I cannot answer, with any near consistency. At first it was "You Found Me", but then it quickly became "Never Say Never". As I think about what my favorite song on the CD is, I realize that it depends just as much on my mood at the time, as how my relationship with my best friend is. For a while, "Say When" was a song that quickly progressed up my most played playlist. Perhaps, now my favorite song, is the one that I looked up the lyrics last time. At first, I listened to "Syndicate" because of it's tune and the music around it. When I got past simply listening to the song, the lyrics hit me. While this is not the first time I have heard a song with this theme, to me, this song is the most realistic, possibly. I guess, I can only hope.
As I go through my days, I wonder whether I still continue to live in the daze that surrounded me when school began this year. An eerie, uncharacteristic optimism motivated me past all that I had attempted for before. If this daze still surrounds me, am I right to still continue to feed off of it? But if it has passed, is this what I am looking for again? Am I right to look for it again, or is this something I should let go seeking for? So many questions, so little directions. How I miss the olden days when it was ok to ask for my parents advice.
For now, I guess I should focus on questions that I can answer though. Surprisingly, I can actually do physics, which means that it's way too easy right now. I am not complaining though, just commenting.
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